''lil miss obsessive"

today has been a long~ day. and when i said long, it really does. well, of cos in a not so literal way.
lotsa tings happened today, both the good ones and the bad ones.

it really does make me feel a hell lot better when my friend told me that she's back in the game again. something is happening to her and the last time we were on the phone, she was telling me she might wanna quit. you probably wanna ask me what was it that she planned to quit, but i cant tell ya. its a secret i promised not to tell! ;) i dont make a promise i cant keep. lol. but the important thing is, she is back!

she's a really gr8 friend and honestly, i cant bear to lose her, as a BFF! cos if she does quit, we'd not be able to keep in touch and eventually, becoming strangers. who knows right?? huhu.. thnk god, she is not gonna leave.

*fuuuuhh..*
*wink*

aikss.. enuff with the happy stuff, nowz the time for something which is more, erm, more angst?? or should i say emo?

you know, i was told all along to not-to-be a pretender nor a faker. i hate it, yes i truly hate it when im asked to be more "friendly". its not like im so damn evil or acting like a bi**h, but why on GOD'S BEAUTIFUL EARTH i'd wanna pretend to be friends or BFF with the person i dont feel comfortable to hang out with? for God's sake. i am NOT a HYPOCRITE. and thats reason why some peeps are mad at me right now. get a life dude!

i've tried to be nicer and it failed. but i would keep trying cos i dont wanna make things worst but the sad case is, sometimes peeps juzt not see your effort but your failure. you've done tonnes of good stuff to them but one single mistake, you are blacklisted. maybe i should join The Black List Club . lol. juzt kidding!

im kinda burning out due to all these conflicts. yes i am. :( and listening to Love Me Butch while im drinking Slurpee aint making me feel any better. this is real' SUck!!

i know its my fault too. but apparently, according to some peeps, this is all my fault.
erm.. no comment. hahaha..

i should really try to change my stinky annoying attitude, arent i? :)

okie dookie then. i will TRY. :P

you might wanna keep checking in to see if i have changed for good. lmao!

i will leave you guys with that.

cheers

xoxoxo
hazie