Tuesday, July 29, 2008
peeps who really knows me better will know the fact that im such an emo kid.
and to be honest, right now i dont feel good at all. things are falling into pieces and im so damn fucking tired to pull it all back together.
its only the beginning of the new semester but yet im all burnt out already. sux as a shit hole man. :(
this post is really gonna be an emo posting.
and yeah, i have to admit that im not good at handling pressure. who does? some juzt hide it well enuff so that no one els could see how fragile they are. or some like me, show it to world without me myself even notice that.
sometimes i juzt feel like im so done with putting on a mask and pretend that everything is gonna be okay.
im living a lie. how could it get more pathetic?
at the same time, im so sick of trying please everyone cos some peeps are like borned to take others for granted. no matter how much or how hard you pleased them, they will never get enuff of it. they juzt keep cuming back and ask for more. lol
i wanna come clean in this post, i do fake my feelings sometimes. which is not a wise thing to do. but, only to those peeps that arent my real friends. survival skill~ its funny when they tell me that im a fake but at the same time, a question pop up in my head,
"so, you are telling me this is the real you? you arent acting? cos your 'talent' are way better than mine. and thats why peeps often tells me that im such an cocky XO." lmao!
well, i must say~ this post has absolutely nothing to do with anyone who is still living or remain dead. :b
its 1:00am.. i got morning class tomorrow so i better go to bed.
ciaos!
ps:
1.estranged's new album is coming soon!
2.they are the guest band in samsons club tour @ mont kiara and sunway pyramid.
3. my lecturer is a RATU GEDIK!
4.going back malacca this weekend as well! lol
xoxo
hazie
Saturday, July 26, 2008
its 1:27 in the morning.
hmmm.. please dont kill me after you read this..
I AM GOING BACK HOME AGAIN TOMORROW, after PR II's class. well, not exactly after the class cos i gotta meet a friend of mine later to pass some journal and stuff that i googled+saved to her. hopefully it can help her with the presentation on next week.
hey, next week im not going back to malacca okay..??
haha.. its not like i go back every weekend. :b
"last week i went back for THE DARK KNIGHT and The Kami Gig leh!"
"what about this week? whats your reason?? "
"c'mon la.. dont be jealous cos i get to go back and you dont." lol
okok.. its my grandma's bday! uh-huh! hehehe..
i've promised my mum so i have to go back. (if i dont, she might hunt me down) ;)
but this time around im not coming back on sunday. i will skip the monday morning class cos its obviously useless. mr lecturer practically come into class LATE and talk nonsense, juzt like some other lecturers. and the important part is, the class is an hour long and so far we didnt sign for attendance! lol
and yeah, today i chat with raja klaka thru YM (yahoo messenger). its been a long time since i last chat wif him. i think last semester, during final exam. wow! he is a great guy and not to forget to mention, he is goddamn funny. haha.
other than that, things arent getting any better. most probably wont get the loan but i wont give up. gotta LIVE LIFE TO THE MAX!!
oh yeah! my dad is buying me a new phone as bday present. its kinda weird but so far i've received a few birthday present already! my birthday is in AUGUST!! but i dont mind, not at all~~ *grinning*
by the way, there are a couple songs that i cant get them out of my mind! like;
KELLY CLARKSON-DONT WASTE YOUR TIME
METRO STATION-KELSEY
ESTRANGED-YANG PERNAH
LINDSAY LOHAN-BOSSY
JIMMY EAT WORLD-ALWAYS BE
KATY PERRY-SELF INFLICTED
JONAS BROTHERS-BURNING UP
dont ask me why. i have absolutely no idea why. maybe you'd tell me why after you listen to them? lol
alritie then, thats pretty much about it. gotta run now!
tomorrow is gonna burn lotsa energy.. im sorta gonna running around wearing baju kurung cos our PR's lecturer wants us to wear formal attire. i dun feel comfortable wearing formal apparel so im juzt gonna stick with baju kurung. imagine myself rushing and running around to catch up the ktm,rapidkl and bus... phewww~
ciaos!
have a awesome weekend! while im hanging out with all the aunties and uncles in my grandma's birthday dinner/buffet. lalalalalala~~
xoxo
hazie, the gal who's gonna miss AVRIL's concert :(
Friday, July 25, 2008
im taking a break from my assignment and do a posting about Chrissie White.
anyone ever heard of Chrissie White? if you never heard of this talented photographer before, click here.
i dont know about you but goddamnit, she really blew my mind! lol. i have to say this although it might sound kinda weirdy or quirky to you but she is super duper talented! and she is only 14! yes,she is only 14. really.. here is juzt one of her marvellous work.
"Perfection is finally attained not when there is no longer anything to add but when there is no longer anything to take away, when a body has been stripped down to its nakedness”Concept: Advertisements have made woman want to be who they are not, we will never be barbie dolls unless we starve, we will never be completely flawless unless we become nonhuman. Be who you are, and don't be afraid of it.Background: My idea is that the woman who is holding the iron is molding and making a new "skin/person" for herself to go out in public with.
Photoshop info:I cropped this image, combined two clones of myself, edited the tones and added a vignette, blurred and sharpened parts to get a 60s esc feel.
there are 100 more photos from her but im too tired to upload them all. lol. i gotta finish up my work dude. its like 2:03am.. im so damn exhausted but i cant sleep. *frustrated*
anyhow, have a great day!
cheers!
xoxo
hazie
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
today has been a long~ day. and when i said long, it really does. well, of cos in a not so literal way.
lotsa tings happened today, both the good ones and the bad ones.
it really does make me feel a hell lot better when my friend told me that she's back in the game again. something is happening to her and the last time we were on the phone, she was telling me she might wanna quit. you probably wanna ask me what was it that she planned to quit, but i cant tell ya. its a secret i promised not to tell! ;) i dont make a promise i cant keep. lol. but the important thing is, she is back!
she's a really gr8 friend and honestly, i cant bear to lose her, as a BFF! cos if she does quit, we'd not be able to keep in touch and eventually, becoming strangers. who knows right?? huhu.. thnk god, she is not gonna leave.
*fuuuuhh..*
*wink*
aikss.. enuff with the happy stuff, nowz the time for something which is more, erm, more angst?? or should i say emo?
you know, i was told all along to not-to-be a pretender nor a faker. i hate it, yes i truly hate it when im asked to be more "friendly". its not like im so damn evil or acting like a bi**h, but why on GOD'S BEAUTIFUL EARTH i'd wanna pretend to be friends or BFF with the person i dont feel comfortable to hang out with? for God's sake. i am NOT a HYPOCRITE. and thats reason why some peeps are mad at me right now. get a life dude!
i've tried to be nicer and it failed. but i would keep trying cos i dont wanna make things worst but the sad case is, sometimes peeps juzt not see your effort but your failure. you've done tonnes of good stuff to them but one single mistake, you are blacklisted. maybe i should join The Black List Club . lol. juzt kidding!
im kinda burning out due to all these conflicts. yes i am. :( and listening to Love Me Butch while im drinking Slurpee aint making me feel any better. this is real' SUck!!
i know its my fault too. but apparently, according to some peeps, this is all my fault.
erm.. no comment. hahaha..
i should really try to change my stinky annoying attitude, arent i? :)
okie dookie then. i will TRY. :P
you might wanna keep checking in to see if i have changed for good. lmao!
i will leave you guys with that.
cheers
xoxoxo
hazie
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
how many of you peeps out there actually listen to our local indie bands?? maybe i should start a poll about this i think. haha.. but unfortunately, there are peeps who doesnt even know whats the meaning of "local indie bands".
LOCAL INDIE BANDS = bands which are unsigned by any records label and they practically use their own money to produce or come out with their album.
so, unlike all those artistes who are signed by big label companies, these local acts really came a long long way. they have been fighting real' hard to be wherever they are rite now. for example, POP Shuvit! They had toured Japan in 2006 and the JAPANESE are crazy about them!! besides, they set up their very own Shuvit Management and Studio 21:05 later.
im not gonna tell it all in here but you guys can check out their official sites or Myspace page for more details. you can always google about them. :P
however, the main purpose of this post is still, ASKING Y'ALL TO VOTE FOR THEM!!!
Pop Shuvit have been nominated for the 2008 MTV Asia Awards Favourite Local Artist - Malaysia.
if you wanna help, please,
Send in your votes via SMS to :
MAA..MY3 to 33776
OR,
VOTE ONLINE!!
http://www.mtvasiaawards.com/Malaysia/Nominees/show/artist/23
voting ends JULY 25TH 2008. the time is running out so please, vote for them!
they work very very hard to please our ears..lol
show them some supports!!
and next post will probably be about my FAVE local band ~~ ESTRANGED!! hehe :P
till then,
do VOTE!
luff y'all who read my blog ;)
xoxo
hazie
hey there boys and girls!
i bought my first copy of ROTTW last saturday!
you see,i juzt did something nuts on last saturday, and here's the story to tell:
my saturday's class ended @ 11am and i decided to go back home(melaka) afterwards. the point is i have to come back to bangi again by sunday. so that means im only gonna be home for like a day. but it didnt stopped me. lol
so yeah, i did! my housemate gave me a ride to ktm station and the journey begin..
i took ktm to seremban and then from terminal one to melaka sentral by 2pm's bus. it was a long ride so i kinda fell asleep and i hope i didnt drool!! XD cos there was this kiddo sitting beside me and i think he is a junior.lol. so much for my image as a senior. if im not mistaken,i reached malacca around 4 pm++ and after i bought the ticket for today,i took a town bus. BUT,i wasnt heading home. hahaha..
instead, i was going to dataran pahlawan to meet up with kerry for the KAMI GIG II.lmao!
hell yeah! and im glad i did!
its freaking awesome! i have to admit that at first i was thinking the sound system is gonna be real' sux. but i guess i thought wrong!
the sound system is all fine and amazing though its rainning.thnks to the kami crew of cos.. all the bands really rock their souls out! from LOVE ME BUTCH to THE TIMES. those are the bands i managed to saw. yeah,i went there and the show was like half way gone~~ :( what to do,public transport are lame as hell.. lol. my sis and her friends went to the gig too but they didnt stay till the gig ends as well..
anyhow, kerry finally reached around 6pm. though she didnt tell, but i knew she cant really stand it. its not about the local indie bands, its the crowd. well, the peeps there was all smoking as if its the end of the world. lmao! :P i coudnt take it anymore either so we left for a movie which is why i didnt see meet uncle hussain perform.
hey, there is a BUT..:) but we watched BATMAN THE DARK KNIGHT!!
hell yeah!!
hahah...this is the reason why i was so eager to go back to malacca! :P c'mon...its BATMAN THE DARK KNIGHT im talking about!
i've been longing to watch this movie since last year...
i've been counting down the days and nights to watch it...
its WORTH it.totally!
even though it costs 10 bucks but its worth it peeps!really!
so, if you havent watch it, you HAVE TO watch it! im telling ya!seriously dude.the movie is 2 hours++ long but you wont spend a second feeling bored at all. unless i wanna be real' picky,i'd say maybe the part where edison chen acted as a security guard or whatsoever. lol..
so,go watch it. :) go with your date,your family,your friends,or anyone.juzt go! :P
well,thats it for today.its 1.58am in the morning. gotta go to bed. (i will try to sleep and fight the insomnia..)
and do vote for pop shuvit cos they have been nominated for the 2008 MTV Asia Awards Favourite Local Artist - Malaysia.
you can vote via sms:
MAA..MY3 to 33776.
or visit the site below,
voting ends JULY 25th 2008,so keep voting k?
but if you dont wanna vote,thats cool. :)
well,thats it for today.
till then,
peace out!
xoxo
hazie
wassup peeps!
WELCOME TO MY BLOG!
yes, its official! i finally got my own proper blog.
you know, since like forever, peeps have been telling me to sign up for a account over here.
A:" Dude, c'mon la, its free!"
B:" jOn, for God's sake, juzt dicth the goddamnit fs' blog."
so yeah, here i am, writing the first ever post for my Blog.
sounds strange isnt it? haha
well, thats it for the first blog post.
keep checking in aite. ;)
have a gr8 day hunn!
xoxo
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
