''lil miss obsessive"

if i need to write a review about this sem, the rating is gonna be real' bad. yeah, worst than ever.

in fact, im starting to have the feeling that nothing went right in my life again. whatever i do, it aint right. last night is like the worst day ever in my whole entire life. it is, no doubt. i cant believe that i did something like that. i never meant to take credit for others hard work. i hate myself, shoudve follow up, shouldve been more active in it, shouldve ask around this and that. but i didnt, and its all too late. yet they are so kind, willing to help me. what kinda person i am? taking peeps and things for granted? and im regret about the ultimate decision i made in the first sem. why would i wanna change my major course back then. sux. now i dont get ptptn loan becos i didnt inform them about that. not to mention since i have moved out from campus, i need to pay the rent and bills. omg. whatve i done???? what was i thinking?? now my folks need to suffer with me, and my sis too. and programming, it makes me headache. but its one of my major courses. they all do well and understand it but me? all the codes, the variables... did i made the right choices? i dont think so.. im okay if im the only one who have to deal with the consequences, but no. peeps around me too! im such a burden. shouldnt even be alive for doing things like this.



yes im regret. but there is nothing i can do. i wish i could turm back time, but i cant. i wish i didnt make such decision, but its too late. i can only wish.



im so so so sorry. i really am. i guess im not a good person afterall. you should really stay away from me. im sorry.

1. hazie got herself the name during last semester when she was walking to the toilet, and thats when she saw the haze outside the dorm (apparently ukm is much more like a jungle than she tot). moreover she thinks that her future and her characteristic are very "hazy".

2. hazie luffs french but she doesnt understand much. she uses online translator. but she plans to take it in the upcoming semester.

3. sometimes she wishes she could be someone else. someone who she's not though she knew it aint good.

4. she is a chrissie white wannabe.

5. hazie misses the time spent with her darlx back at hometown.

6. she got so much to say, too much to tell, but too little words to be used.

7. she didnt mean to hurt anyone. deep down inside she is wounded as well.

8. there are times that she wishes she could leave it all behind, and runaway.

9. she still need a getaway roadtrip.

10. she likes andy. peeps said that she is insane but thats who she is.

11. hazie luffs maggie mee too.

12. her hair might look great in brunette or dark brown. maybe?

13. she is grateful that her friends keep reading her blog though its boring.

14. the awful truth is, she had put some weight on herself these couple weeks. which is not a good thing.

15. hazie = mcdonald's addict

there are more but im busy. luff y'all.
GOOD LUCK KERRY!!!!!!

day 1
i really miss it though i juzt left it for like not even half an hour.
seeing my dad leaving with his bike, i was telling myself not to let them drop, and i managed to control myself.
its a long long drive due to traffic jam, especially since its the end of raya holiday,
lotsa peeps heading back kl too, cos monday's working day again.
reach here around 9pm++,
felt like i wanna throw out,
not feeling good at all when i saw my house's front door,
grill,
yet that motherfucker managed to kemek it and rob.
pecah rumah, i heard lotsa of story about it but never imagine it'd happened to me.
i didnt lost anything.
but my housem8 lost her lappie and a couple hundred bucks.


day 2
im sick, yes, im sick
flu, fever, sore throat, u name it.
its nothing serious but im not feeling well, not at all
wanna go home
yet its just day 2
assignments, assignments..
maybe its bcos of my moody condition or watever, things arent going quite well
getting worse and worse
gotta pull myself togeda
nid to finish my work
i miss my mum, dad, lil bro, sis, grandma
miss the hanging out wif ma darlx
i dont feel home here
it sucks


day 3
i have no idea wats gonna happen tmr
but i dont think its gonna be anything good


"hidup ini memang palat, tapi esok masih ada.. .."

i will have faith
and i will counting down the days to friday or saturday [:
xoxo
hazie

WE THE KINGS!!!!

it was 10pm++

we was exhausted

this is the real life of uni students

erm
its been a couple years since i last saw someone and i really need to say it out loud!!
i dont miss you like i did before
i got over you, finally
like one budak sial told me before, time will ease your pain and at the same time it will heal your wound

and it did!
here i am
living my not-so-adventurous life
but i am relieved
and i am happy
i can breathe now
living my life without the thoughts of you

you were wonderful
you were sweet
you were kind
you were smart

but recently i had finally came to realize something i shoulda did a few years back.
you are not what i tink you are
and i think thats the reason why it became so easy for me to do it

i still adore you
but not as much as i did before
afterall, you are not the one
i knew it a long long time ago
but i juz keep pushing it away

its kinda funny
when i tink back
i was such a fool
but im not gonna be one
not anymore

she deserves you
thats what you said
but frankly i dont think its gonna last any longer
im not jealous
im not sabotaging
but its all about you
cos you are "so perfect" in a broody way
full of emoness
thats how you sell yourself
im not laughing
this is the truth

im evil
yes i know it
im borned evil
as a bitch
but never a slut
lmao

so yeah, im pretty emo rite now
but its alright
im okay
better than ever

there will always be a spot for you in my memory
but its not all about you anymore

xoxo
hazie

listening to TELL ME WHAT TO DO, metro station..


frankly, i surprised mahself when i look at mah current fave playlist the other day.
good Christ! its full with bands like METRO STATION, TOKIO HOTEL, JONAS BROTHERS, OASIS, INCUBUS, BUSTED, MCFLY!!!
well, still a playlist packed by numberous bands but dude, i mean take a good look at the genre.

electro, electronica, cheesy teen pop, so-called rock band??

what happened to me? a drasctic change of taste in music?
but Incubus is acceptable LAH.
hey, i luff all this bloody awesome bands but i was a girl who used to listen to Linkin Park, Simple Plan, Three Days Grace, Bowling For Soup, Blink 182 and stuff like that. i still do but not that much.
dun ask me why cos apparently i have absolutely no idea as well.
beats me..

well, back to mah stinky boring life.
hmm.. not much difference actualli, nothing unusually exciting or manage to make me feel happy or any better, except the moment when i got mah ticket to balik kampong for mid term+raya break!
hell yeah! thats something which is gonna put a smile on mah face.
im homesick though i basically go bec every single week..
call me a baby.. in fact, call me whatever u wan, its not like im gonna give a rat' ass about wat u tink about me. i aint living mah life for ya. not a chance.

yesterday i was supposedly to be going to ptptn but i ended up boarded on a bus which was heading to ntv7 studio for a show call jangan tido lagi.
learned a lot from that trip! gr8 experience! but at the same time im so damn exhausted. its a long story but i really wanna mention in here that the abang mia persuasion damn good.
c'mon, me and mah fren are persuaded by him okay. we actualli turn our back on our plan and join them. lmao!
but he is kind enuff to help us about the ptptn probs, so, kudos for him.

we was bz camwhoring during the gap btwin one episode to another..
and the guy from kolej office was actualli lecturing us cos at some time, we were actualli takin pics outside of the washroom! lmao!! X)
there are couples of pics but u noe me, im lazy..
so yeah, here are a few of the pics i took during tat trip.

hey, no more legs wehh!!

this is the pic of me, juz outside of the *gentlemen's washroom*!

the set~~

i had lotsa of fun that day wif emy. haha..

yeah,one more thing b4 i end this.

ESTRANGED's new album will be out around mid October after raya.

keep your eyes and ears wide open to get the latest info!

and obviously im didnt link any url lately so please google it yaself aite.

luff ya!

:b

nitez!

xoxo

hazie

kaki rokok??!