''lil miss obsessive"

if i need to write a review about this sem, the rating is gonna be real' bad. yeah, worst than ever.

in fact, im starting to have the feeling that nothing went right in my life again. whatever i do, it aint right. last night is like the worst day ever in my whole entire life. it is, no doubt. i cant believe that i did something like that. i never meant to take credit for others hard work. i hate myself, shoudve follow up, shouldve been more active in it, shouldve ask around this and that. but i didnt, and its all too late. yet they are so kind, willing to help me. what kinda person i am? taking peeps and things for granted? and im regret about the ultimate decision i made in the first sem. why would i wanna change my major course back then. sux. now i dont get ptptn loan becos i didnt inform them about that. not to mention since i have moved out from campus, i need to pay the rent and bills. omg. whatve i done???? what was i thinking?? now my folks need to suffer with me, and my sis too. and programming, it makes me headache. but its one of my major courses. they all do well and understand it but me? all the codes, the variables... did i made the right choices? i dont think so.. im okay if im the only one who have to deal with the consequences, but no. peeps around me too! im such a burden. shouldnt even be alive for doing things like this.



yes im regret. but there is nothing i can do. i wish i could turm back time, but i cant. i wish i didnt make such decision, but its too late. i can only wish.



im so so so sorry. i really am. i guess im not a good person afterall. you should really stay away from me. im sorry.

1. hazie got herself the name during last semester when she was walking to the toilet, and thats when she saw the haze outside the dorm (apparently ukm is much more like a jungle than she tot). moreover she thinks that her future and her characteristic are very "hazy".

2. hazie luffs french but she doesnt understand much. she uses online translator. but she plans to take it in the upcoming semester.

3. sometimes she wishes she could be someone else. someone who she's not though she knew it aint good.

4. she is a chrissie white wannabe.

5. hazie misses the time spent with her darlx back at hometown.

6. she got so much to say, too much to tell, but too little words to be used.

7. she didnt mean to hurt anyone. deep down inside she is wounded as well.

8. there are times that she wishes she could leave it all behind, and runaway.

9. she still need a getaway roadtrip.

10. she likes andy. peeps said that she is insane but thats who she is.

11. hazie luffs maggie mee too.

12. her hair might look great in brunette or dark brown. maybe?

13. she is grateful that her friends keep reading her blog though its boring.

14. the awful truth is, she had put some weight on herself these couple weeks. which is not a good thing.

15. hazie = mcdonald's addict

there are more but im busy. luff y'all.
GOOD LUCK KERRY!!!!!!

day 1
i really miss it though i juzt left it for like not even half an hour.
seeing my dad leaving with his bike, i was telling myself not to let them drop, and i managed to control myself.
its a long long drive due to traffic jam, especially since its the end of raya holiday,
lotsa peeps heading back kl too, cos monday's working day again.
reach here around 9pm++,
felt like i wanna throw out,
not feeling good at all when i saw my house's front door,
grill,
yet that motherfucker managed to kemek it and rob.
pecah rumah, i heard lotsa of story about it but never imagine it'd happened to me.
i didnt lost anything.
but my housem8 lost her lappie and a couple hundred bucks.


day 2
im sick, yes, im sick
flu, fever, sore throat, u name it.
its nothing serious but im not feeling well, not at all
wanna go home
yet its just day 2
assignments, assignments..
maybe its bcos of my moody condition or watever, things arent going quite well
getting worse and worse
gotta pull myself togeda
nid to finish my work
i miss my mum, dad, lil bro, sis, grandma
miss the hanging out wif ma darlx
i dont feel home here
it sucks


day 3
i have no idea wats gonna happen tmr
but i dont think its gonna be anything good


"hidup ini memang palat, tapi esok masih ada.. .."

i will have faith
and i will counting down the days to friday or saturday [:
xoxo
hazie

WE THE KINGS!!!!