''lil miss obsessive"

2008-11-05T16:42:00.003+08:00

sorry

2008-10-19T18:55:00.002+08:00

if i need to write a review about this sem, the rating is gonna be real' bad. yeah, worst than ever.

in fact, im starting to have the feeling that nothing went right in my life again. whatever i do, it aint right. last night is like the worst day ever in my whole entire life. it is, no doubt. i cant believe that i did something like that. i never meant to take credit for others hard work. i hate myself, shoudve follow up, shouldve been more active in it, shouldve ask around this and that. but i didnt, and its all too late. yet they are so kind, willing to help me. what kinda person i am? taking peeps and things for granted? and im regret about the ultimate decision i made in the first sem. why would i wanna change my major course back then. sux. now i dont get ptptn loan becos i didnt inform them about that. not to mention since i have moved out from campus, i need to pay the rent and bills. omg. whatve i done???? what was i thinking?? now my folks need to suffer with me, and my sis too. and programming, it makes me headache. but its one of my major courses. they all do well and understand it but me? all the codes, the variables... did i made the right choices? i dont think so.. im okay if im the only one who have to deal with the consequences, but no. peeps around me too! im such a burden. shouldnt even be alive for doing things like this.

yes im regret. but there is nothing i can do. i wish i could turm back time, but i cant. i wish i didnt make such decision, but its too late. i can only wish.

im so so so sorry. i really am. i guess im not a good person afterall. you should really stay away from me. im sorry.

15 THINGS

2008-10-09T01:06:00.004+08:00

1. hazie got herself the name during last semester when she was walking to the toilet, and thats when she saw the haze outside the dorm (apparently ukm is much more like a jungle than she tot). moreover she thinks that her future and her characteristic are very "hazy".

2. hazie luffs french but she doesnt understand much. she uses online translator. but she plans to take it in the upcoming semester.

3. sometimes she wishes she could be someone else. someone who she's not though she knew it aint good.

4. she is a chrissie white wannabe.

5. hazie misses the time spent with her darlx back at hometown.

6. she got so much to say, too much to tell, but too little words to be used.

7. she didnt mean to hurt anyone. deep down inside she is wounded as well.

8. there are times that she wishes she could leave it all behind, and runaway.

9. she still need a getaway roadtrip.

10. she likes andy. peeps said that she is insane but thats who she is.

11. hazie luffs maggie mee too.

12. her hair might look great in brunette or dark brown. maybe?

13. she is grateful that her friends keep reading her blog though its boring.

14. the awful truth is, she had put some weight on herself these couple weeks. which is not a good thing.

15. hazie = mcdonald's addict

there are more but im busy. luff y'all.
GOOD LUCK KERRY!!!!!!

mal du pays

2008-10-06T15:05:00.005+08:00

day 1
i really miss it though i juzt left it for like not even half an hour.
seeing my dad leaving with his bike, i was telling myself not to let them drop, and i managed to control myself.
its a long long drive due to traffic jam, especially since its the end of raya holiday,
lotsa peeps heading back kl too, cos monday's working day again.
reach here around 9pm++,
felt like i wanna throw out,
not feeling good at all when i saw my house's front door,
grill,
yet that motherfucker managed to kemek it and rob.
pecah rumah, i heard lotsa of story about it but never imagine it'd happened to me.
i didnt lost anything.
but my housem8 lost her lappie and a couple hundred bucks.

day 2
im sick, yes, im sick
flu, fever, sore throat, u name it.
its nothing serious but im not feeling well, not at all
wanna go home
yet its just day 2
assignments, assignments..
maybe its bcos of my moody condition or watever, things arent going quite well
getting worse and worse
gotta pull myself togeda
nid to finish my work
i miss my mum, dad, lil bro, sis, grandma
miss the hanging out wif ma darlx
i dont feel home here
it sucks

day 3
i have no idea wats gonna happen tmr
but i dont think its gonna be anything good

"hidup ini memang palat, tapi esok masih ada.. .."

i will have faith
and i will counting down the days to friday or saturday [:
xoxo
hazie

WE THE KINGS!!!!

madness~~

2008-09-13T02:01:00.002+08:00

it was 10pm++

we was exhausted

this is the real life of uni students

you, in my recycle bin

2008-09-12T00:01:00.004+08:00

erm
its been a couple years since i last saw someone and i really need to say it out loud!!
i dont miss you like i did before
i got over you, finally
like one budak sial told me before, time will ease your pain and at the same time it will heal your wound

and it did!
here i am
living my not-so-adventurous life
but i am relieved
and i am happy
i can breathe now
living my life without the thoughts of you

you were wonderful
you were sweet
you were kind
you were smart

but recently i had finally came to realize something i shoulda did a few years back.
you are not what i tink you are
and i think thats the reason why it became so easy for me to do it

i still adore you
but not as much as i did before
afterall, you are not the one
i knew it a long long time ago
but i juz keep pushing it away

its kinda funny
when i tink back
i was such a fool
but im not gonna be one
not anymore

she deserves you
thats what you said
but frankly i dont think its gonna last any longer
im not jealous
im not sabotaging
but its all about you
cos you are "so perfect" in a broody way
full of emoness
thats how you sell yourself
im not laughing
this is the truth

im evil
yes i know it
im borned evil
as a bitch
but never a slut
lmao

so yeah, im pretty emo rite now
but its alright
im okay
better than ever

there will always be a spot for you in my memory
but its not all about you anymore

xoxo
hazie

craving for something haram

2008-09-10T23:25:00.004+08:00

listening to TELL ME WHAT TO DO, metro station..

frankly, i surprised mahself when i look at mah current fave playlist the other day.
good Christ! its full with bands like METRO STATION, TOKIO HOTEL, JONAS BROTHERS, OASIS, INCUBUS, BUSTED, MCFLY!!!
well, still a playlist packed by numberous bands but dude, i mean take a good look at the genre.

electro, electronica, cheesy teen pop, so-called rock band??

what happened to me? a drasctic change of taste in music?
but Incubus is acceptable LAH.
hey, i luff all this bloody awesome bands but i was a girl who used to listen to Linkin Park, Simple Plan, Three Days Grace, Bowling For Soup, Blink 182 and stuff like that. i still do but not that much.
dun ask me why cos apparently i have absolutely no idea as well.
beats me..

well, back to mah stinky boring life.
hmm.. not much difference actualli, nothing unusually exciting or manage to make me feel happy or any better, except the moment when i got mah ticket to balik kampong for mid term+raya break!
hell yeah! thats something which is gonna put a smile on mah face.
im homesick though i basically go bec every single week..
call me a baby.. in fact, call me whatever u wan, its not like im gonna give a rat' ass about wat u tink about me. i aint living mah life for ya. not a chance.

yesterday i was supposedly to be going to ptptn but i ended up boarded on a bus which was heading to ntv7 studio for a show call jangan tido lagi.
learned a lot from that trip! gr8 experience! but at the same time im so damn exhausted. its a long story but i really wanna mention in here that the abang mia persuasion damn good.
c'mon, me and mah fren are persuaded by him okay. we actualli turn our back on our plan and join them. lmao!
but he is kind enuff to help us about the ptptn probs, so, kudos for him.

we was bz camwhoring during the gap btwin one episode to another..
and the guy from kolej office was actualli lecturing us cos at some time, we were actualli takin pics outside of the washroom! lmao!! X)
there are couples of pics but u noe me, im lazy..
so yeah, here are a few of the pics i took during tat trip.

hey, no more legs wehh!!

this is the pic of me, juz outside of the *gentlemen's washroom*!

the set~~

i had lotsa of fun that day wif emy. haha..

yeah,one more thing b4 i end this.

ESTRANGED's new album will be out around mid October after raya.

keep your eyes and ears wide open to get the latest info!

and obviously im didnt link any url lately so please google it yaself aite.

luff ya!

nitez!

xoxo

hazie

kaki rokok??!

Entrevue

2008-09-06T00:53:00.005+08:00

nope! i didnt disappeared or vanished into thin air, just so you know. [:
it rains almost everyday here in bangi/kajang, but i luff huJan, so it doesnt really bother me much.

oh,i know its hard for any of you to believe that i truly am busy, but its a solid fact. it is..
hmmm..
its been a long day..
today, me and mah two group members (mah frens) went to kajang and try to get ourselves a chance to interview any organization or company's owner regarding our group assignment. basically we need to write a report on how he/she runs the company and so on.

so yeah, we took a rapidkl right after our major class ended and went to kajang of cos to find our victim. lmao!
i must say that we were pretty damn lucky cos we managed to interview one of the owners of OPTIX WORLD.
hell yeah, no need to "cruise" around kajang to get those ~ "NO, im not free for any kinda interviews!" or " what is that again??" or "sorry. no time for that kinda stuff..".
hahaha..

our session with this yuppie ( young+urban+professional peeps) only takes around 30minutes yet im overwhelm. its always nice to talk to peeps who are so successful, right?
btw, entrevue means interview too, except its in french.
i luff french and if things work out, i might wanna learn french next semester. :P

anyhow, hmm.. the most annoying part of this outing is, non other than our luffly rapidkl driver. yucks!

our mr. big guy over here has done a marvelous job today by letting all the passengers waited for him for like 2 hours. and, not to mention it was rainning! it wasnt pouring but hello~~ we are the one who are paying their monthly salary, at least indirectly weh. yet, what sorta attitude they have been showing us? jeez.. but not all of them are irritating cos apparently, some of the drivers are friendly and nice, of cos, with good driving skills. unlike the other snobs!

well, whatelse can i do while waiting for mr. big guy to finish his break or whatsoever ( he actually stood right next to me at the corner and smoking)? yes, i took some randomaniac pictures, tats what i luff to call the pictures that i took. especially since i got this new camera fon. :b and here are some of the photo i took just now.
btw, me and my housemate reach home around, give or take 11pm. im not sure.

limliwei n' amoi camwhoring.. ..

and yes, i dun like to take any photos except mah legs! :b

again.. mah legs..

thats it for this one, i will keep posting and take more pictures, hopefully more legs involved. lmao!

ciaos!

xoxo

hazie

darkest moment..aku stress!!!

2008-09-03T00:55:00.006+08:00

im doomed as if im in hell..

cos i failed to get the scholarship..

how am i supposed to get thru tis..

im clueless..

feel like i got a hit right at my head.. *bang!!*

absolutely no idea wut am i supposed to do.

im such a jackass..

the last thing that i ever wanna do is to be a burden to peeps around me.

it sux!

Jeez, help me..

xoxo
helpless n hopeless
hazie

Happy Fasting

2008-09-01T22:02:00.002+08:00

juz got back from malacca and i cant wait to post. hehehe..
im kinda obsess with this bloggie thing cos apparently peeps who care about me do read mah blog and they wanna know whats going with mah life.
it feels good cos there are peeps who really read mah blog, and not bcos they are bored to death. :b
once again, thanks a lot bcos u care.

first of all, i have to admit that im relieved, when i found out that due to certain unforeseen circumstances, estranged couldnt be the supporting act at avie's concert.
pheewww.. hahaha..

and fyi, avril's onstage clothing is notg different from what she wear in her daily life - skinny, tees, hoodies.. so for those who said that she might dress up too sexy in her concert, this juzt show how much u dont know about avril. get a life! she aint britney wehh.. [:

and last saturday was a shocked to me. my luffly lil fren from jb pay me a visit. what a surprise! and yeah, she is mah sis' fren too. tats why i got to know her. :) but unfortunately for her, she had to helped us do some housechores.. haha. she is such a nice kiddo, and smart as well! but too bad she couldnt stay for the dinner. maybe next time!

tomorrow will be my first ever mid term. however, surprisingly im not really nervous as i should be. hey, im updating my blog, this already show how hegeh i am weh.

whatever, im going to study now so this is it.

gotta run!

cheerios!

happy fasting to all mah muslim frens!!

xoxo
hazie

31 Agustus 2008

2008-08-28T20:47:00.005+08:00

tomorrow is THE DAY.
hell yeah..
estranged=Rich+Hanafi+Din+ANDY is gonna rock those hu r heading to th concert.
and of cos, mah luffly avie too.
enjoy th show if ya going.
you are one lucky kid!
whatever..

im going home tomorrow, tats far more important to me than some concert. cos i juz wanna go home.
i miss mah folks, mah lil bro though he is such a pain in th ass, mah sis, mah machas.
kerry,fyi, ur not mah macha, so please dun b so goddamn perasan! lol
and yeah, i will meet up with my high school mate too. nothing excited to tell about it so lets just move on..

ermm..
tuesday got a mid term paper, so i have to study for it, less fun..
and presentation on wednesday or thursday. havent prepare yet.
gosh, hello, uni life aint enjoyable at all okay.
but i wanna go to the beach, so badly and i know someone will bring me there, he got no choice. thats what frens are for, rite.
im sure you already knew this post is a crappie one when you read till here.
yup, its obvious.

if you got time, go look for METRO STATION and BOYS LIKE GIRLS.
btw, its so damn shameful if you dont know a darn thing about BOYS LIKE GIRLS.
you shud really bang ur tauge head on the wall!!

be aware.. be open minded.. dont be a robot hu listen to r&b or uban songs.. lol
yes, u do have the right to like whatever u wan but i dun have to like it.
excuse me if im being harsh or sarcastic.
im only being mahself, and once again, u dun have to like me.
"dont like me for who i am,
then you dont like me for who i am,
but all that you are gonna get,
is who i am."

SELAMAT HARI MERDERKA!!!!!

ciaos!

xoxo
hazie

its just me

2008-08-27T23:59:00.003+08:00

hey guys! how y'all doing lately??
wondering why is it so hard to reach me this few days?
lol
i have been real heck busy, seriously i am.
im sorry if i've been a hardass. i do luff to chat but there is juz no time for tat.

however, today's classes are all cancelled, we called it an IM Holiday!! hurray~!
so yeah, its rainnin bac then but we didnt let the rain stopped us! :b
me and a few frens of mine went to cheras pasar malam.hmmm...
to be honest, im exhausted but i dun wanna affect their high spirit so i juz keep it down.
not much to buy cos it was pouring.
reach home around 10pm++, thanks to my coursemate who fetch us home.
we kinda bumped into her at ktm so she was kind enuff to gave us a ride a home. ;)

tmr, morning class.. really sleepy rite now so i guess i will go to bed early.
and yeah, my ears are fixed. now, i can hear clearly~~ im so relieved~
but there is one thing which is bugging me though.. a tiny little noise can wake me up from sleep and if its too loud or noisy, my ears hurt like hell. :( so much for my happy ending.

national day is juz around the corner, but the current politic scenes sux. as a citizen, i dont know who to believe anymore. they are all full of lies, lies, lies.. whatever.

i juz wanna go home and at peace. dont bug me if im home. i dont care what ur gonna say about me but once im home, i wanna be alone, wif my family. and sometimes, hang out wif my besties. dont be offended if i say no when u ask me out, its not about you. im very picky when it comes to hang-out-wif-who-and-at-where. hate me if u wan, but it aint gonna change me. its my life and im the one who is in charge. lol.

dats all for today, gotta run now.

cheerios!

xoxo
hazie

2008-08-24T21:41:00.001+08:00

sorry peeps! darn B U S Y lately.. ..

will be blogging again soon~

take care!

cheerios!

xoxo

hazie

extreme emo stage

2008-08-20T01:08:00.004+08:00

oh my lord~~~!!

nanda nanda nanda?????

arrrrrggggghhhh........

wondering why im soooo goddamnit annoying??

i will tell you WHY!

cos ESTRANGED is gonna perform in AVRIL's concert next week!

estranged in AJL 08.

errrrrrrrrgggh!!!

i had it coming cos estranged is huge right now, especially after they won the AJL.

and before this, they also performed as the opening act in some international artists/bands' concerts. for example, Good Charlotte's concert last year.

i wanna see their live performance so badly.. i never see them perform before.

i wanna see how andy drums, i wanna see hanafi rock out, how din shake his hair*lmao*, how rich rock the crowd, how they do soundcheck and all. :(

kinda hard to believe that im way more upset when i found out that i gonna miss estranged's performance than avril's. i luff avie like hell! aiksss..

anyhow, gonna go to bed now, morning class tomorrow and appointment for mah ear as well.

enjoy the show if ya going, and send me some pic or vid please!

ciaos!

xoxo

hazie

to rishi darl

2008-08-18T22:11:00.005+08:00

opsssy!

before i forgot again.

i so wanna thank rishi darl for what he did last saturday.

not sure he will ever read this since he is so goddamn busy lately.

hmmm...

thanks a zillion for winning me the ticket to go to avie's concert.

too bad i still cant go cos transportation probs.

anyhow, thnk you thnk you thnk you!

it means a lot to me!

its like the best present i ever received in mah entire life!

hope the person that you give the ticket to will enjoy the concert as much as i would.

luff ya!

xoxo

hazie

weirdy weirdy weirdy.. ..

2008-08-18T18:34:00.010+08:00

ermm, how y'all doing?

went back home again last weekend but all i did was just zz zz zz..
well, cos im sick. nothing real' serious actually, juzt the usual symptoms like headache, fever, wanna puke, and my left ear is such a pain in mah ass! i have been suffering due to the hearing prob since a month ago but i juzt ignored it. haha.. im so afraid that the doc might tell me that a surgery must be done to mah left ear that kinda thing you know. :b

untill mah dad, mum and mah sis start to give me these lectures non-stoply. and yeah, its kinda gross cos when i try to use the cotton buds to clean up mah left ear and see whats really going on with it. lalalalalala~~ here comes the most unforgettable moment in mah life! the cotton buds was fulled with these reddish ear wax! eeeeeeewwwwwwww!!!!!!! :S lmao! so, i finally gave up and being so damn stubborn. its time to care about mah previous left ear. i have to admit that today's journey to come back to ukm aint enjoyable at all! i felt like i wanna throw up all along the way! when i finally reach mah faculty, i can barely stand straight cos its disgusting! hell yeah! wuek!

haha.. hope you aint having ya lunch or dinner or anything tight now! cos tis post is only gonna get even more grossy! hehehehe

this is how the pusat kesihatan looks like

so yeah, after mah 2pm-3pm tutorial, i headed to ukm's pusat kesihatan to have mah ear checked. hmmm. thnk god! im so relieved when the doc told me its not blood! according to him its juzt too much ear wax! hahhaha! dun hate me! the ear wax are blocking mah hearing so he gave me a small bottle of ear drop. here is the instruction, one or two drops of it every night before i go to bed. i might feel like someone is blocking mah left ear after awile but its perfectly fine. but. there is a but. hmm... but i have to come back again on wednesday to let him clear out all the wax in mah left ear. *dun ban mah blog, i promise this is th only grossy post!* lmao!

too borink~ and kinda sesated.

im seriously glad that mah left ear's condition are not really as bad as i tought i'd be~ phhewww~ [: therefore, after the check up, i took rapidkl T430 to go back. thats it for now! *i promise this is the only.. erm..wednesday's will be the last! :b*

and i will certainly go to bed earlier than ever cos my headache is killing me and i still, feel like i wanna puke! lets juzt hope that the doc is gonna fix mah ear and everything cos i cant take it ang longer.

xoxo

hazie

They Came and They Conquered

2008-08-15T18:43:00.008+08:00

ladies and gentlemen, beware~~

ukm bus stops are no longer a safe spot to wait for th wait-till-my-neck-bcam-long-like-giraffe-still-not-here-mia-rapidkl or ukm busses !!

watch th vids below n u shall noe wat im tryin to tell y'all~

dun piss them off, or else ya gonna pay fr it!! :b

therefore, im proud to say tat ukm's PROM KINGS AND QUEENS are th last "peeps" tat u ever wanna mess with.. ;)

and im sorry for the awful skill of mine when im taking these vids, but im damn scare as well since they have became extremely aggressive lately due to certain unknown reasons. before this, when i was meeting up with mah ex-commate, amanda, we got chased by 3 or 4 of them. becos they were obviously attracted to my wangi mia cempedak goreng! i ran like hell. lol! [:

cheerios!!

xoxo

hazie

+hectic+

2008-08-12T02:23:00.009+08:00

peeps, just so you know, my eyes cant open widely for this very moment cos im dead tired. [:

aikss..however, i still havent finish edit the assignment which im supposed to finish it by today. guess i will juz bring mah lappie wif me tmr so that i can finish it up between the gap of classes. :b

and yeah, i just gotta back from malacca today and im missing home already! today aint really that exciting though its sorta like the holiday of my faculty. hell yeah!

but sadly, the weekend arent enjoyable as i tot it'd be. something huge happened yesterday...and its not the type of stuff i wanna share it here. :( u know, some peeps juzt wont grow up. treating their own parents like trash, i mean, what kinda fucking peeps do that??? im real' pissed off yesterday and i think i might even punch her in the face. lol.. vandalisme~

shiranai.. maybe i have it inside me since the day im borned. lol

thnkfully, something great did happened last weekend! hurray! kerry, sze ling and i went to th Pikom PC Fair over at mp last saturday becos kerry wanna pick up a cable for internet access since she has to share one cable with the rest of her housemates. *poor kerry~* and its been long since the three of us hang out togeda again!

surpringly, although there are lotsa brands and companies that involved in in, we COULDNT find one single cable. and thats not all of it, some promoters didnt even know what a cable is when they were asked about it. hmmmmm.. no comment. lol

but eventually, we did found our popular guy with the AFRO!!!

the ultimate camwhore!!!!

p/s: rishi, i wanna take back my words, please go get a hair cut!!!!

oh yeah, i bumped into my high school classmate today at melaka sentral! she is so damn funny when she saw me. haha.. she basically jus walked my way and asked me, "I think i know you."! [: yes you do know me, catherine!! lol gal u changed so much and ya so gorgeous now! and i cant wait to see you again. other than that, as usual i chat ym wif kerry and gossiping. lol and yeah, msn with mah bro today. a gr8 role model overall except the part about apek-ing. :b fyi, haiz, i didnt changed much, still a shy person bt no longer a kiddo LAH. but i do get the part whereas a big bro or sis, ur lil sibling will forever remain a kiddo to u. thnks fr everytg! and the best of luck! xoxohazie

2:03am

2008-08-09T01:14:00.009+08:00

damn too busy to blog this few days.. [: i've been running around here and there for classes cos apparently the major courses in this semester are all at another faculty (ftsm is pretty far away from fssk LAH..).. besides that, i need to lepak at library quite often to find books/journals/whatever or meeting for assignments.

aiksss.. not to mention my panda-eyes. recently insomnia hits me back with a big warm hug..haha.. :b everyday when i got back from uni are like 7pm++ or 8pm++, after a bath and dinner and its like 10pm already. but that is not the end of the day yet.. i gotta do some research online to find info for assignments or finish up tasks given by lecturers.

i cant help but to admit that some lecturers that i got in this semester are quite weirdy. we got the gedik type, the sambil lewa type, the suka-jeling type, the sesated type, and so on..phewww.. =.=
hahaha...

today i spent the whole afternoon in library with my friends. as usual, nothing much happened. hey,what so special that could happen in a library?? :P and i was too damn bored till i took a few pix when i was finding books.

actually there are lots more pix that i took but im juz too lazy and i really wanna go to bed. hope i can fall asleep soon. :] and tmr m heading back to malacca! again..hahaha.. cant wait to go home! miss my familia and all my darlx. ;)

thats it for this post! have a great weekend! luff y'all!

xoxo

hazie

not broke, just broken hearted..

2008-08-06T01:56:00.005+08:00

sorry peeps!
i know i promised to keep updating my bloggie but goddamnit im so damn heck busy lately. :s

assignments are all over the place like a gigantic wave, too bad i aint a good surfer and that is why im having some trouble with this new semester. sux as a hell hole.. :)

however, i did managed to watch mtv asia awards which was on last saturday. hell yeah!
even though pop shuvit didnt won the award but its okay.. no big deal. [:

and yeah, i got my new fonnie! lol
its a sony ericsson w580i. not really that fancy and all but im in luff with it.! lmao!
its my bday present as i said in the previous post and mine are grey+blue.
which means im gonna start taking pix or vids of mah frens! hohoho.. beware..!

i know i know, im borned evil but im not quite a lil miss evil, cos someone i know is the mighty miss evil..(tepuk dada tanyalah selera aite, K.Tan)

alritie then,thats pretty much sums up this post.
i will try to keep posting..
yeah, do try to listen to The Script,click here! i love "the man who cant be moved". :)

ciaos!

xoxo
hazie

01 Augustus 2008

2008-08-01T01:49:00.002+08:00

hey peeps, i know i promised i'd keep posting but the fact is~ i am real' busy and lazy as well. =b

erm.. going back malacca tomorrow! its my lil bro's birthday so i really wanna go back. it wont be much celebration but i still wanna go home and have a look at this 14yearold kiddo.

its funny cos no matter how old he is, he's still be like 4yearold to me, i guess any of you who have younger sis or bro sure do feel the same.

that kiddo is so damn tall. infact, he is taller than me now, lol
je manque mon petit frere

and yeah, im getting a new cell as my birthday present! ahaks! i duno wats going on but this year, i've got my presents already. its kinda too early but trust me, i dun mind at all~~ X)

heading back to malacca tomorrow after the class which is gonna end @ 12pm. gonna stick at home first and maybe will hang out with besties on saturday. not sure yet la.. hv been way laid back and homesick recently. lol

its 2:06am. better get to the bed. dun wanna be late for class tomorrow.

meanwile, you might wanna check out The Getaway Plan and Estrella.

gotta run now.

chill out~

xoxo
hazie

meng-emo

2008-07-29T00:31:00.004+08:00

peeps who really knows me better will know the fact that im such an emo kid.

and to be honest, right now i dont feel good at all. things are falling into pieces and im so damn fucking tired to pull it all back together.

its only the beginning of the new semester but yet im all burnt out already. sux as a shit hole man. :(

this post is really gonna be an emo posting.

and yeah, i have to admit that im not good at handling pressure. who does? some juzt hide it well enuff so that no one els could see how fragile they are. or some like me, show it to world without me myself even notice that.

sometimes i juzt feel like im so done with putting on a mask and pretend that everything is gonna be okay.

im living a lie. how could it get more pathetic?

at the same time, im so sick of trying please everyone cos some peeps are like borned to take others for granted. no matter how much or how hard you pleased them, they will never get enuff of it. they juzt keep cuming back and ask for more. lol

i wanna come clean in this post, i do fake my feelings sometimes. which is not a wise thing to do. but, only to those peeps that arent my real friends. survival skill~ its funny when they tell me that im a fake but at the same time, a question pop up in my head,

"so, you are telling me this is the real you? you arent acting? cos your 'talent' are way better than mine. and thats why peeps often tells me that im such an cocky XO." lmao!

well, i must say~ this post has absolutely nothing to do with anyone who is still living or remain dead. :b

its 1:00am.. i got morning class tomorrow so i better go to bed.

ciaos!

ps:
1.estranged's new album is coming soon!
2.they are the guest band in samsons club tour @ mont kiara and sunway pyramid.
3. my lecturer is a RATU GEDIK!
4.going back malacca this weekend as well! lol

xoxo
hazie

"im juzt a little bossy~"

2008-07-26T01:46:00.004+08:00

its 1:27 in the morning.
hmmm.. please dont kill me after you read this..

I AM GOING BACK HOME AGAIN TOMORROW, after PR II's class. well, not exactly after the class cos i gotta meet a friend of mine later to pass some journal and stuff that i googled+saved to her. hopefully it can help her with the presentation on next week.

hey, next week im not going back to malacca okay..??

haha.. its not like i go back every weekend. :b

"last week i went back for THE DARK KNIGHT and The Kami Gig leh!"
"what about this week? whats your reason?? "
"c'mon la.. dont be jealous cos i get to go back and you dont." lol

okok.. its my grandma's bday! uh-huh! hehehe..
i've promised my mum so i have to go back. (if i dont, she might hunt me down) ;)

but this time around im not coming back on sunday. i will skip the monday morning class cos its obviously useless. mr lecturer practically come into class LATE and talk nonsense, juzt like some other lecturers. and the important part is, the class is an hour long and so far we didnt sign for attendance! lol

and yeah, today i chat with raja klaka thru YM (yahoo messenger). its been a long time since i last chat wif him. i think last semester, during final exam. wow! he is a great guy and not to forget to mention, he is goddamn funny. haha.

other than that, things arent getting any better. most probably wont get the loan but i wont give up. gotta LIVE LIFE TO THE MAX!!
oh yeah! my dad is buying me a new phone as bday present. its kinda weird but so far i've received a few birthday present already! my birthday is in AUGUST!! but i dont mind, not at all~~ *grinning*

by the way, there are a couple songs that i cant get them out of my mind! like;
KELLY CLARKSON-DONT WASTE YOUR TIME
METRO STATION-KELSEY
ESTRANGED-YANG PERNAH
LINDSAY LOHAN-BOSSY
JIMMY EAT WORLD-ALWAYS BE
KATY PERRY-SELF INFLICTED
JONAS BROTHERS-BURNING UP

dont ask me why. i have absolutely no idea why. maybe you'd tell me why after you listen to them? lol

alritie then, thats pretty much about it. gotta run now!
tomorrow is gonna burn lotsa energy.. im sorta gonna running around wearing baju kurung cos our PR's lecturer wants us to wear formal attire. i dun feel comfortable wearing formal apparel so im juzt gonna stick with baju kurung. imagine myself rushing and running around to catch up the ktm,rapidkl and bus... phewww~

ciaos!

have a awesome weekend! while im hanging out with all the aunties and uncles in my grandma's birthday dinner/buffet. lalalalalala~~

xoxo
hazie, the gal who's gonna miss AVRIL's concert :(

Chrissie White

2008-07-25T01:31:00.003+08:00

im taking a break from my assignment and do a posting about Chrissie White.

anyone ever heard of Chrissie White? if you never heard of this talented photographer before, click here.

i dont know about you but goddamnit, she really blew my mind! lol. i have to say this although it might sound kinda weirdy or quirky to you but she is super duper talented! and she is only 14! yes,she is only 14. really.. here is juzt one of her marvellous work.

"Perfection is finally attained not when there is no longer anything to add but when there is no longer anything to take away, when a body has been stripped down to its nakedness”Concept: Advertisements have made woman want to be who they are not, we will never be barbie dolls unless we starve, we will never be completely flawless unless we become nonhuman. Be who you are, and don't be afraid of it.Background: My idea is that the woman who is holding the iron is molding and making a new "skin/person" for herself to go out in public with.

Photoshop info:I cropped this image, combined two clones of myself, edited the tones and added a vignette, blurred and sharpened parts to get a 60s esc feel.

there are 100 more photos from her but im too tired to upload them all. lol. i gotta finish up my work dude. its like 2:03am.. im so damn exhausted but i cant sleep. *frustrated*

anyhow, have a great day!

cheers!

xoxo

hazie

Fake Your Own Feelings

2008-07-23T22:27:00.005+08:00

today has been a long~ day. and when i said long, it really does. well, of cos in a not so literal way.
lotsa tings happened today, both the good ones and the bad ones.

it really does make me feel a hell lot better when my friend told me that she's back in the game again. something is happening to her and the last time we were on the phone, she was telling me she might wanna quit. you probably wanna ask me what was it that she planned to quit, but i cant tell ya. its a secret i promised not to tell! ;) i dont make a promise i cant keep. lol. but the important thing is, she is back!

she's a really gr8 friend and honestly, i cant bear to lose her, as a BFF! cos if she does quit, we'd not be able to keep in touch and eventually, becoming strangers. who knows right?? huhu.. thnk god, she is not gonna leave.

*fuuuuhh..*
*wink*

aikss.. enuff with the happy stuff, nowz the time for something which is more, erm, more angst?? or should i say emo?

you know, i was told all along to not-to-be a pretender nor a faker. i hate it, yes i truly hate it when im asked to be more "friendly". its not like im so damn evil or acting like a bi**h, but why on GOD'S BEAUTIFUL EARTH i'd wanna pretend to be friends or BFF with the person i dont feel comfortable to hang out with? for God's sake. i am NOT a HYPOCRITE. and thats reason why some peeps are mad at me right now. get a life dude!

i've tried to be nicer and it failed. but i would keep trying cos i dont wanna make things worst but the sad case is, sometimes peeps juzt not see your effort but your failure. you've done tonnes of good stuff to them but one single mistake, you are blacklisted. maybe i should join The Black List Club . lol. juzt kidding!

im kinda burning out due to all these conflicts. yes i am. :( and listening to Love Me Butch while im drinking Slurpee aint making me feel any better. this is real' SUck!!

i know its my fault too. but apparently, according to some peeps, this is all my fault.
erm.. no comment. hahaha..

i should really try to change my stinky annoying attitude, arent i? :)

okie dookie then. i will TRY. :P

you might wanna keep checking in to see if i have changed for good. lmao!

i will leave you guys with that.

cheers

xoxoxo
hazie

Pop Shuuuuuuuviiiiiiiiiit

2008-07-22T21:56:00.011+08:00

how many of you peeps out there actually listen to our local indie bands?? maybe i should start a poll about this i think. haha.. but unfortunately, there are peeps who doesnt even know whats the meaning of "local indie bands".

LOCAL INDIE BANDS = bands which are unsigned by any records label and they practically use their own money to produce or come out with their album.
so, unlike all those artistes who are signed by big label companies, these local acts really came a long long way. they have been fighting real' hard to be wherever they are rite now. for example, POP Shuvit! They had toured Japan in 2006 and the JAPANESE are crazy about them!! besides, they set up their very own Shuvit Management and Studio 21:05 later.

im not gonna tell it all in here but you guys can check out their official sites or Myspace page for more details. you can always google about them. :P

however, the main purpose of this post is still, ASKING Y'ALL TO VOTE FOR THEM!!!
Pop Shuvit have been nominated for the 2008 MTV Asia Awards Favourite Local Artist - Malaysia.
if you wanna help, please,

Send in your votes via SMS to :

MAA..MY3 to 33776

OR,

VOTE ONLINE!!

http://www.mtvasiaawards.com/Malaysia/Nominees/show/artist/23

voting ends JULY 25TH 2008. the time is running out so please, vote for them!

they work very very hard to please our ears..lol

show them some supports!!

and next post will probably be about my FAVE local band ~~ ESTRANGED!! hehe :P

till then,

do VOTE!

luff y'all who read my blog ;)

xoxo

hazie

another crazy act pulled off by lil miss obsessive

2008-07-22T01:49:00.002+08:00

hey there boys and girls!

i bought my first copy of ROTTW last saturday!

you see,i juzt did something nuts on last saturday, and here's the story to tell:

my saturday's class ended @ 11am and i decided to go back home(melaka) afterwards. the point is i have to come back to bangi again by sunday. so that means im only gonna be home for like a day. but it didnt stopped me. lol

so yeah, i did! my housemate gave me a ride to ktm station and the journey begin..

i took ktm to seremban and then from terminal one to melaka sentral by 2pm's bus. it was a long ride so i kinda fell asleep and i hope i didnt drool!! XD cos there was this kiddo sitting beside me and i think he is a junior.lol. so much for my image as a senior. if im not mistaken,i reached malacca around 4 pm++ and after i bought the ticket for today,i took a town bus. BUT,i wasnt heading home. hahaha..

instead, i was going to dataran pahlawan to meet up with kerry for the KAMI GIG II.lmao!

hell yeah! and im glad i did!

its freaking awesome! i have to admit that at first i was thinking the sound system is gonna be real' sux. but i guess i thought wrong!

the sound system is all fine and amazing though its rainning.thnks to the kami crew of cos.. all the bands really rock their souls out! from LOVE ME BUTCH to THE TIMES. those are the bands i managed to saw. yeah,i went there and the show was like half way gone~~ :( what to do,public transport are lame as hell.. lol. my sis and her friends went to the gig too but they didnt stay till the gig ends as well..

anyhow, kerry finally reached around 6pm. though she didnt tell, but i knew she cant really stand it. its not about the local indie bands, its the crowd. well, the peeps there was all smoking as if its the end of the world. lmao! :P i coudnt take it anymore either so we left for a movie which is why i didnt see meet uncle hussain perform.

hey, there is a BUT..:) but we watched BATMAN THE DARK KNIGHT!!

hell yeah!!
hahah...this is the reason why i was so eager to go back to malacca! :P c'mon...its BATMAN THE DARK KNIGHT im talking about!

i've been longing to watch this movie since last year...

i've been counting down the days and nights to watch it...

its WORTH it.totally!
even though it costs 10 bucks but its worth it peeps!really!
so, if you havent watch it, you HAVE TO watch it! im telling ya!seriously dude.the movie is 2 hours++ long but you wont spend a second feeling bored at all. unless i wanna be real' picky,i'd say maybe the part where edison chen acted as a security guard or whatsoever. lol..

so,go watch it. :) go with your date,your family,your friends,or anyone.juzt go! :P

well,thats it for today.its 1.58am in the morning. gotta go to bed. (i will try to sleep and fight the insomnia..)

and do vote for pop shuvit cos they have been nominated for the 2008 MTV Asia Awards Favourite Local Artist - Malaysia.

you can vote via sms:
MAA..MY3 to 33776.

or visit the site below,
http://www.mtvasiaawards.com/Malaysia/Nominees/show/artist/23

voting ends JULY 25th 2008,so keep voting k?
but if you dont wanna vote,thats cool. :)

well,thats it for today.

till then,
peace out!

xoxo
hazie

check check rock rock!!

2008-07-22T01:08:00.002+08:00

wassup peeps!

WELCOME TO MY BLOG!

yes, its official! i finally got my own proper blog.

you know, since like forever, peeps have been telling me to sign up for a account over here.

A:" Dude, c'mon la, its free!"

B:" jOn, for God's sake, juzt dicth the goddamnit fs' blog."

so yeah, here i am, writing the first ever post for my Blog.

sounds strange isnt it? haha

well, thats it for the first blog post.

keep checking in aite. ;)

have a gr8 day hunn!

xoxo